I haven't felt right in the mind for quite some time.
And I believe I'm dead to my friends years ahead of my end.
I don't know why I waste my god damn time when I feel i'm living just to die. And I don't know why I waste my god damn breath when all I do is wish for my death. I've been cold for the past three fucking years.
Paralyzed by my fears and tears. Shed during nights spent sleepless alone in my head. Only thinking I am better off dead.
And I'm sick. Oh so sick of feeling like this. I'm sick. Oh so sick of all the stupid bullshit. So why don't I just go through with it?
Plagued by grief in my heart and hatred in my veins. Its no wonder I feel fucking insane. I've been trying to pretend that I'd be able to mend myself together. I'll never find trust in another soul. The evil of this world has taken its toll. I'm sorry mother, I'm sorry father. Oh why do I even bother?
I hate myself more and more everyday and I can't wait until I'm six feet under buried in my grave.
Eyes roll forward nothing but grey and black. With nothing but the exit wound protruding out the back of my skull. Yes in fact I'm a mother fucking maniac. Hang myself struggle till my neck fucking snaps.
Rotting alive. Until the day I die. Oh nightmare of life please subside. Eyes roll forward nothing but black and grey. Watch me decay. Watch me decay.
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